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Hot Dream - The Life and Thoughts of Zach

Jan. 17th, 2004

12:09 am - Hot Dream

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In my dream my basement (which in my dream looks exactly like it looks now but is perceived differently) is the center of some vast technological entity like a space ship or a military style base (maybe like super hero headquarters). Something has gone horribly wrong with it and I'm trapped there and I must blow the whole thing up in order to save humanity. There's no chance for me to survive.

I rig up some bombs in two separate corners, both of which are key to what needs to be destroyed (don't know if they are like data core or phsyical super structure or what). My theory is that I will set up both devices in such a way that they will be timed so that the first blast will instantly and painlessly vaporize me and will also set off the second blast. Somehow I screw it up and the first blast is much more localized than I expected and so far from being vaporized I'm just exposed to intense searing heat, fire, and pain and the second blast doesn't even go off. I set the second blast off directly and it also is so localized that I just get thrown back and highly bruised. Now the entire basement is in flames, there's intense heat. I remember the extreme distortion of the air from all the heat. And I'm stuck with fire all around me just waiting to be burned alive, scared shitless of facing death, knowing I'm doing the right and the only thing possible.

There's some thought in my head that I may be pulled from the wreckage, I may survive. Should I try to prolong the pain to maximize that chance, or should I jump into the flames and get it over with?

Then I wake up.

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From:assclouds
Date:January 16th, 2004 10:42 pm (UTC)
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yr a weirdo. i say this with a completely objective viewpoint. do not argue.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:07 am (UTC)
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I am a weirdo.
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From:blutende_narbe
Date:January 16th, 2004 10:47 pm (UTC)
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hey you're zach.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:06 am (UTC)
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I am Zach.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:11 am (UTC)
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Are you Briana or are you someone else who has Briana's picture in your livejournal?
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From:blutende_narbe
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:12 am (UTC)
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im briana.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:15 am (UTC)
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Nice to make your livejournal acquaintance.
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From:blutende_narbe
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:16 am (UTC)
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:D

may i add you to my list?
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From:zarfmouse
Date:January 17th, 2004 12:17 am (UTC)
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Of course.
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From:nomadwolf
Date:January 17th, 2004 02:48 am (UTC)
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Ouch. Had a burning dream similar to that on a train in Switzerland. I figure that was because I took a nap immediately after reading (and listening to) the lyrics from Burial's "Disfigured in Flames". Eep.

Evanescence -- Fallen -- My Immortal
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From:(Anonymous)
Date:January 17th, 2004 10:09 am (UTC)

what freud might say...

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this is kate, but i've forgotten my password.

the basement is your unconscious, and you've decided to rid yourself of unconscious influences (or maybe unacceptable desires) by blowing It all up, at great risk to yourself (i.e. your ego). You're trying to do this in a way that is as painless as possible, but as it turns out, that's not possible. So then you have to decide whether to annihilate yourself completely with great pain or suffera through a painful recovery as an altered version of your old self. Also painful, but at least you'd live

To me, the key is your perception that what you're doing is the "right and the only thing possible." Says something about your way of choosing a path or way of being... maybe it endangers ayou or creates risk of pain??
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From:marezcharz
Date:January 20th, 2004 10:38 am (UTC)

Re: what freud might say...

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Whoa, whut she sed. Niiiiiiiiiice. Sounds like a fight Zach might have with himself.

If I didn't know the little I do know about Zach, I would think this was too archetypal - too formula. It seems to really apply here.

I think its about sex. (kidding)
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From:zarfmouse
Date:January 20th, 2004 06:08 pm (UTC)

Re: what freud might say...

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See I think it's because I just installed 2 new electrical circuits in the basement and moved all my computers down there and then had been discussing whether our home-grown electrical install was up to code and whether our old knob and tube wiring was a fire hazard with my EE buddy.

Combine that with the fact that my dreams are ALWAYS about military operations and outrageous heroics and you've got a pretty standard Zach dream.

I'd beleive Kate if it weren't for the fact that I'm at an all time low on decisions to make. I haven't really made any serious decisions in a while.
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