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Ego Blast - The Life and Thoughts of Zach

Oct. 28th, 2003

02:24 am - Ego Blast

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There's this meme that's a-brewin' in our local community where everyone makes a completely self-congratulatory post. So here, I can tell you without ego, is why I am awesome:

There are some things that I'm really very good at and they all involve creativity and creative problem solving. When I'm focused and inspired, I am a very good organizer. When I'm focused and inspired I am a very good writer. When I'm focused and inspired I am a very good programmer. When I am focused and inspired I can cook deliciously foods. I throw good parties. Collage work (visual, sonic, or culinary) gives me a special joy. I approach many activities with a Zen-like single-minded meditation in motion approach.

I really deeply care about the people around me. Understanding how and what people think is highly important to me. Taking care of my friends and community is highly important to me. Living a sustainable, pacifist, caring, nurturing, loving life is highly important to me. All these things that are important to me: I believe I am achieving them pretty damned well.

For my entire life, I expect to be able to count the number of people that I have such bad feelings for that I have put them out of my life and will not take them back on the fingers of one hand. The number of people that I have a real loving, trusting, open connection with is larger than I can conceive of in a single sitting and ever growing.

For the first time in many years, I am getting enough sleep. I am not overworking myself. I am slowly catching up on my many huge backlogs. I am taking care of myself and I believe that I will only get better at this as the backlogs subside.

I am able to resolutely stand up for my desire to not have animals in the house no matter how much my roomates whine about it.

Though I strive to be empathic and to minimize ego, I am not a doormat.

I can be a good teacher.

I am, slowly but surely, building a folk music scene in this town.

I am an active part of an international movement for radical progressive community oriented social and political change.

My friends trust and respect me and welcome me into their lives as I do them.

I am winning the daily struggle to fight the culture of fear.

Though I am single now, it is largely by choice and I am aware that, historically, people that I am attracted to have been attracted to me and when the time is right, despite any misgivings I have about my ability to attract, it'll all work out. I shall smooch again!

I'm a fearless goofball. I say whatever I am thinking. I am a nerd. I am a geek. I am fashionless. I jump off of cliffs and build my wings on the way down. I bullshit really well.

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From:domystic
Date:October 28th, 2003 06:45 am (UTC)
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dude, let jay have his cat. compassion begins at breakfast.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 28th, 2003 08:17 am (UTC)
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See here's the thing. I like to have multi-day parties. I have a lot of allergic friends. My allergic friends don't come to my multi-day parties if there is a cat living here.

Also litterboxes smell nasty. And although our house sometimes smells nasty anyway, I'm working towards a day when that is not true.

I had an old cat foisted on me that I had to take care of for 3 years. I loved that cat but now that he isn't around I'm basking in the lack of catness. There will come a day when I am ready to have a cat again but that day is not soon.
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From:domystic
Date:October 28th, 2003 09:09 am (UTC)
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i have parties too; i sweep and dust; i offer allegra; i have had no complaints; catboxes don't stink if you clean them. i merely remark. it's about the love, man.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 28th, 2003 08:18 am (UTC)
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I'm so sure I'm getting shit on YOUR warmfuzzy meme. :(
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From:domystic
Date:October 29th, 2003 05:07 am (UTC)
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i am so sorry. i did not receive the warm and fuzzy guidelines. i am not not this ascerbic in real life, i promise.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 29th, 2003 09:04 am (UTC)
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*snif* I'll get over it.
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From:domystic
Date:October 29th, 2003 05:09 am (UTC)
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if it makes you feel any better, i do not know what a 'meme' is. commence reciprocal shit-doling at will.
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From:assclouds
Date:October 28th, 2003 07:45 am (UTC)
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:(
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 28th, 2003 08:20 am (UTC)
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See above.
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From:assclouds
Date:October 28th, 2003 08:29 am (UTC)
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but she's so cute!
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From:nomadwolf
Date:October 28th, 2003 02:45 pm (UTC)
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and fluffy! (Insert cat fresh out of the dryer pic here)
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 28th, 2003 03:14 pm (UTC)
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So what everyone is trying to tell me here is that there is nothing worth commenting in my "why I'm cool" note other than an affirmation that I'm an asshole for not wanting to live with a cat?

I'm never falling into this warm fuzzy "safe space for ego" trap again.
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From:stuffedsheep29
Date:October 28th, 2003 07:04 pm (UTC)
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Well...

Speaking as one who has not conversed with you three-dimensionally, it's really great to see all of these wonderful positive things about you! It's also great that you know all of these positive things about yourself. This description fits one cool puppy.

Oh yeah, and cats kick ass.
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From:domystic
Date:October 29th, 2003 05:11 am (UTC)
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whatever happened to fearless goofball? cat got his tongue?
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 29th, 2003 09:06 am (UTC)
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Fearlessly goofy. Not fearless.

I'd have mentioned the fears, but that wasn't allowed. :)
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From:mr_ducktape
Date:October 28th, 2003 11:14 pm (UTC)

Take my man-love, bitch!

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Damn this Zach guy's a cool person. Glad he's one of the closest people in my life, I say.

You rawk, babycakes. I can't thank you enough for being who you are.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 28th, 2003 11:16 pm (UTC)

Re: Take my man-love, bitch!

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Now that's more fucking like it!
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From:nomadwolf
Date:October 29th, 2003 08:51 am (UTC)

Comments, take 3

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this is my 3rd attempt at posting comments.

I said something to the effect of:
this post makes me want to post something similar, but with a list of my shortcomings and deficiencies... (I wrote it better the first 2 times I posted)

to which zarfmouse replied (via email):
The whole point of this meme is that we say self-derogatory things in MOST of our daily posts to LJ. It seems to be a habit of LJers. This one post is to get around that.

to which I would reply:
See, while I do post some self-derogatory items about myself on LJ, I actually consider a lot of what I write to be "cool things in my life." The first time I read your post I realized I couldn't think of too many things I could say I'm good at (etc... I'm a bit drunk now, I can't phrase it better). kinda depressed me. But in the intervening time I've found more stuff (or just rationalized it better, either way, the same result) to put in... we'll see...

way past my bed time...
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 29th, 2003 09:17 am (UTC)

Re: Comments, take 3

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Apparently it worked. :)
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From:kitten_ms
Date:October 29th, 2003 03:22 pm (UTC)
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I know that we are in the early stages of getting to know each other, but reading your post, I found myself thinking, 'yeah...yeah...that sounds like Zach'. Or 'I can see that about him'.

Just from what little contact we have had I can see what an 'awesome' guy you are. I am very glad that Jake has someone like you for a friend.

I am also glad that we are getting to know each other.

I know that I haven't been on much - I took your advice and got another account. I want to get more comfortable with posting before I start letting people I know (or that my husband knows) see my writing.

Reading your post touched me. It makes me want to figure out what I believe about myself. Overall, it made me want to be a better person.
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From:zarfmouse
Date:October 29th, 2003 04:36 pm (UTC)
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You should post one like this, lots of cool kids are doing it. :)

Thank you.

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From:kitten_ms
Date:October 29th, 2003 06:03 pm (UTC)
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You have me thinking about it.
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From:revjack
Date:October 30th, 2003 03:26 pm (UTC)

My cat's breath smells like...

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Dude, we should get a cat. We never have any meat in the house, except Jay's sausages. Think of it like a CSA. Then we can get another cat when we've used that one.
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